I’ve been asking myself that of late. I know that Jesus died for my sins and for yours and that He never sinned. I know that he undertook that willingly because of the great love He and the Father have for us. I have heard that so many times that there’s a danger the deep love in that will be overlooked in all its’ fullness because of how often I’ve heard it.

On one of The Chosen episodes, it portrayed when Jesus and the disciples were drawing near to Jerusalem and Jesus was looking up at the men who were being actively crucified on crosses and it didn’t take much to imagine what that must have been like for Him. He knew what awaited Him.

I think the question that keeps swirling in my heart is why didn’t I have to die on a cross? I’m the one who sinned. What would you do if you knew that at the end of your life…at a date predetermined ahead of time…you would have to be beaten and nailed to a cross to pay for your sins? Have you ever really thought about that? In all honesty, that would be fair.

I think about my sins. I think about all of the sins and hurts that have been committed since mankind has walked on this earth. It’s not hard to understand the need for something to atone for all of those sins. Today we see a world once again witnessing a war and the awful destruction to property and life and any sense of peace or safety. Why do we do these things? Seriously, why? I don’t have the answer. But I do know that I and everyone else who has ever sinned do deserve to pay the price…that’s fair.

What did Jesus say while he hung between the two thieves who were crucified with Him? Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing. Luke 23:34.

I would add none of us know what we are truly doing. Can any one of us justify the sins we do or that the world does? If you had to stand there and look up at the One who died for you in so gruesome a way, could you then honestly justify your sins? Would you look in wonder and question deep in your heart why Him? Why not me?

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. John 3:16-17.

I find comfort in those verses. He loved us and loves us still. I don’t have to hang on a cross to pay for my sins. He did that in my place. Can we take a moment to appreciate that?

The world continues to sin and cause grievous harm and will continue to do that until Jesus returns. We sin because we don’t know what we are doing. Not really. I pray we can take a deep look within and realize we may not know what we are doing but God does know and His plan is for our salvation.

I don’t know if I will ever truly stop wondering at the sacrifice He made for us. It’s too big for me. I am so very grateful for so great a love that He died for me and for you. We don’t know what we’re doing but thankfully He does and has known from the very beginning and my hope and praise and glory are for Him.